Obedience must be the struggle and desire of our life.—Phillips Brooks

This quote was intended for the Christian life, but I was struck with how it is so relevant to my life with my Master. It’s funny how things are acceptable if they come from a Christian stand point, but unacceptable if taken in another direction. If I were to submit to my Master because he is the man in my life and the Bible commands women to submit, it would be acceptable. I am also struck by the number of parallels of my life to my Master and a Christian’s life to Jesus/God.
Anyway, back to the quote:

Obedience must be the struggle and desire of our life.—Phillips Brooks

Perfect submission is both my struggle and my desire. I desire to bow to my Master, to give all to him. I wish to be perfect in my obedience. This is not easy. This is the struggle spoken of in the quote. I have recently been asked to do things that I would have preferred not to. These were not “play things”. These were real life decisions. I was, in a sense, required to make a choice. I knew if I did not choose my Master, that was saying something about our relationship.

Master and I made it through this challenge to U/us. W/we worked together and persevered. We will continue and persevere though others.

Making my will align perfectly with his is work on my part. So is bringing any concerns I have to him. This is difficult at times, yet that is my intent, to fall into complete obedience and please my Master.

OREM, Utah (AP) -- A 70-year-old woman arrested in a dispute over her brown lawn pleaded not guilty Tuesday, then stood by as a Los Angeles lawyer waved handcuffs for the cameras outside court.
Betty Perry is charged with resisting arrest and failing to maintain her landscaping, both misdemeanors.
She was arrested July 6 after failing to give her name to a police officer who visited her home.
During a struggle, Perry fell and injured her nose. She spent more than an hour in a holding cell before police released her.
"I ask the citizens of Orem: How many of you would like to have your great-grandmother taken from her home with bruises and blood and placed in handcuffs for failing to water her lawn?" attorney Gloria Allred said.
"Let's bring sanity back to law enforcement," she said.
The mayor and City Council apologized, and the police department said the situation could have been handled differently. But the city attorney still is pressing charges, and Perry is due back in court next month.
A state investigation found that Officer James Flygare acted properly in arresting Perry after trying to get her to cooperate.
Perry's water had been turned off for about nine months, at her request, although she was living at the house at the time of the arrest. Orem has a shutoff policy for people who are away for extended periods. E-mail to a friend

Okay, the above story is a bit extreme, but sometimes I feel that way about the town I live in. I can’t believe some places have “lawn police”. Who cares what my fucking lawn looks like?? Personally, I like droughts. The grass doesn’t grow, so I don’t have to cut it. Apparently in the above community, that doesn’t fly.

I’m sorry, but I’m putting this story on the “ridiculous” pile!!

I must be nuts! I have taken in a foster dog. This little dog is ½ Yorkshire terrier, ½ Shih Tzu.

First I should say that I already own 3 house dogs, ranging from 20 pounds to 70 pounds. I don’t intend to keep the newest addition, however.

A woman that I work with owned the dog, and apparently they had some “issues”. Those issues consisted of a problem with housebreaking and it would nip at people’s heels. Well, the nipping will be easy enough to take care of. She responds well to a sharp “NO”. The housebreaking…well, that could be more of a challenge.

Anyway, if we get this dog shaped up, the eventual hope is that we can place it in a home for people with disabilities. She has been to the home and the people love her. She loves people. We just have to iron out some wrinkles.

I had to make a pretty quick decision. I was unable to consult with Master on this one. I wish I had been able to. My oldest son once accused me of “not thinking things through”. I made it clear that I would not keep this dog long term, but I will try to make her suitable for out plans.

The old saying is, clothes don’t make the man. I agree with that to a certain extent. You cannot completely judge a person based on what he/she is wearing. However, what one wears DOES affect one.

On Saturday, I had no where I had to go, nothing I had to do. It was chilly, so I dressed in very baggy sweat pants and sweatshirt. I looked and felt like a rag doll. I wasn’t interested in doing much of anything, and I felt like I could lay around the entire day.

I decided I would not dress that way on Sunday. I wore a pair of blue jeans (that fit) instead of the sweats. I got a lot more done and felt much better doing it.

How we dress influences us-what we do, how we feel, and how we see ourselves. Master knows this. That is why I am not allowed to wear plain white underwear. He does not want me to feel “plain”. He wants me to be aware that I am sexy, and, by wearing it for him, in a sense my sexuality is connected to him.

To me it makes sense that a Master influence what his slave wears. This way he influences her, and her feelings, as well as making her aware of his presence.

Master, feel free to influence or direct what I wear. I am yours.

I have been writing recently about discrimination based on bdsm affiliation. Today I’d like to talk briefly about what that looks like.

One of the biggest and most frightening areas of discrimination involves custody battles. Exes can be bitter and vengeful. If an ex wants to hurt you, they know the quickest way to do that is through the children. Many times an ex will use bdsm as a reason for taking one’s children away.

As I have said before, unless the children are directly involved in the activity, it should not be considered. Unfortunately, judges are considering it and it has successfully been used as a reason for denying custody. What is a parent to do? None of the options look good. One can choose to fight it, give up the lifestyle, or hide it. If they admit to their preferences and fight, there is the very real chance of losing their children, not to mention the fact that in the fight the kids will be exposed to a lifestyle that, in my opinion, minors should not be exposed to. That in itself is abusive. They could give up the lifestyle, but if they truly believe it is right for them, that is difficult, not to mention unfair. Most choose the last option. They hide their choice as best they can and hope for the best.

People can also lose their job over this issue. If I am a nurse, my preferences shouldn’t matter, but a boss still might decide it is “wrong” and find a reason to get rid of me. Depending on the job, bdsm might be cited as the reason, or it might not. But if an employer wants to get rid of someone, they can find a way.

There are not many who are willing to stand up and fight this battle openly. God knows, I’m not. The price is simply too high. I am not willing to risk my children, and I need a job to support myself. I read on the internet of a woman who is an activist. She had already lost her kids in a custody battle. I suppose she is willing to endure the spotlight, since she has already paid the highest price of all.